Love That Was Too Good to Be True
A few days ago I lost the love of my life. We had three years together full of love, understanding, and one of the most fascinating lessons I could hold in my heart. And I would love to share it with you today.
People live and love in many different ways. Our love was one that goes too fast, which leads to a lack of reflection, thought, and feeling. Our love was definitely unique – one that you only see in the movies or read in books. Every day I became more and more aware that our love was too good to be true. And we both thought so.
“I love to love and not to be loved, since nothing pleases me more than to see you happy.”
As the days passed we both believed in a feeling full of beauty and purity. We were completely blinded by the excitement of having found something so valuable and unique. That feeling led us to never question if we were pursuing our relationship in a good way, if we really were ‘meant to be,’ or if we were even compatible. In this way, we never really could appreciate what we had, so it only hurts more to go our separate ways.
We thought we could fly and be together forever. Each time we saw each other, we felt our hugs, kisses, and each minute of our love as if it were the first time. Our hearts flooded with this feeling and filled us with inner fulfillment. We were invincible and nothing could break the magic.
With just one look I was filled with the feeling that we would be together our entire lives. We began an inseparable journey within a couple hours of meeting. Sometimes I think that this was where we went wrong: we did not stop to know each other more deeply.
“We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.”
Of course, when you find yourself in such a perfect moment, nothing else matters. I was sure that a unique and magical bond united us. It was such an incredible bond that I was willing to follow you anywhere, and you felt the same. With this feeling we built our lives together without caring about anything else. And so began our story – at full speed.
Our story began so quickly that we crashed and collided within our own realities. We did not know each other well enough yet and this hurt us with time. We failed to empathize and understand one another or learn along the way. Our fatal error stunted our relationship’s growth, and we did not know how to change it.
And then it happened. It was when we realized that we were not really meant to be. I realized it was not I who had to accompany you through the end of your life, nor did you have to accompany me.
The pain of feeling that I did not know how to please you, that we were not compatible or rather so incredibly different from one another only pushed us further into misunderstanding. We drowned in negative emotions that no longer had a positive side. All this led us to not want to be together, physically or otherwise. We thought that our bodies were the only thing left that maintained any kind of bond between us. Our hearts no longer felt the need that initially characterized our relationship. We no longer felt the need to be together, and we were no longer filled with peace in our relationship.
The sadness that we felt made the days grow longer and created an unbelievably profound barrier between us. We parted ways, no longer inseparable. We stopped dreaming of a life together, and our desires started taking us down different paths. I felt so empty. The speed with which we initiated a relationship was now our executioner. Our relationship expired and led me to give up, to stop trying. It took me a while to believe that you were gone, and that our fairytale love had ended.
They say that cultivating love is the easiest thing to do in life. But I could not do it. I gave up, and I was a coward. I let you fly. And you let me fly. But we kept looking up at the sky because I learned to realize that our love was not the kind that is final.
I am sure that elsewhere, in another life or maybe in another body, we will meet again and we will love each other for real. We will learn together, understand each other, empathize with one another, enjoy each other’s company, and share a wonderful friendship. And one more thing: I wish you the best, and for you to always fly. You will always be in my heart, where you will never stop beating your wings.
“True love is nothing more than the inevitable desire to help others to be who they really are.”