What Seems Like an Ending Can Be My Best Beginning

September 23, 2016

A certain number of years will go by and I will die. That may be my definitive ending, but until then, every day will be the sum of the great story of life. It’s  story that I want to live to the fullest.

This is how everything begins and everything ends. Experiences overlap one another and none leave me indifferent. Each lasts as long as necessary to bring me what they must. The worst that I can do in this sense, is to believe that something will go on when it has already ended.

Only if I accept the end will I believe in the beginning

“Nothing is lost if one has the courage to proclaim that all is lost and we must begin anew.”

-Julio Cortázar-

Spiral Staircase

We must accept reality as it is. I am obliged to accept that there are people who will leave or that I can leave, that there are cities that I have to leave behind or that something that was part of my life can no longer be. In other words, it is not a matter of starting over at zero, but of learning to be with the present as it is. 

Even if misunderstanding cuts through this laughter, I can still laugh

When we aren’t ready for something to end, it can cause insecurity, disorientation, and pain. We all find ourselves in labyrinths, situated just inside the exit door, but without the keys that allow us to leave and move on.

In those moments, I, like so many others, did not see anything clearly. It seemed like the ends spread out in time without concluding definitively. Only upon arriving at the end of what was happening did I realize that I had to take control of my life and that I was the only one who could close that door. 

“I am sorely wounded but not slain.

I will lay me down and bleed a while.

And then rise up to fight again.”

-John Dryden-

Resilience is what lends us support and helps us to learn from what we have been through. In this way, even if misunderstanding has cut through the laughter, I have discovered that I can still keep laughing. Even though everything may be lost, I can find myself again.

An ending is the chance for a new beginning

Daisy in Hand

After all this effort, I have overcome my endings and along with them, my past. I have understood that an ending is the chance to live another beginning again. You, too, can do it. In order for there to be a new day, you have to have seen the night go by.

Each day is a chance to be your best. We find our strength in the bad times. Time and events go through changes together and we people change with it as well. We grow and learn from the mistakes that we make and that others make with us. We live and we dream about the happiness that we gather and bring to others. This is why an ending can be my best beginning, your best beginning.

“My past is not a memory. It’s a force at my back. It pushes and steers. I may not always like where it leads me, but like any story, the past needs resolution. What’s past is prologue.”

-Samus Aran-